It's taken a long time to be able to say this, but I think that what my counselor and you guys are saying is true or at least mostly true. The thing is though after that stuff happened, I felt like I had no clue what could happen if I opened my mouth about anything remotely controversial or concerning. I really felt that I had to be very secretive and put on a mask. After a while, I just kind of said the heck with it and if they were going to turn on me they aren't worth my time anyways. I started opening up about stuff and I'll admit I was somewhat surprised that they were still there with open arms after all the big confessions I made.