I agree with Healing, you are young. I understand eastern culture and philosophy and I am sure that it is very difficult. You don't need a girl to be a "man" and porn isn't the answer. Living in the western world I have been deluged with the false notion that porn is okay and it has been backed up by a lot of people through out my life. Try not to feel ashamed about it, because, let me tell you at my peek it took more and more to get me going. I still struggle but I am finding that I don't need porn any more. Keep you head high young one and find something that interest you, to try to take your mind off of the porn, it may not help at first but in the long run it may. I wish I wouldn't have been led down the road, that has made me into an addict, so stop get off the roller coaster and try something else to distract yourself. Stay pure.