I have watched my mother nearly die a few times because of her addiction to alcohol. And that didn't stop me getting addicted myself. After about 15 years I decided it was my time and I gave up drinking a little more than a month ago. It has been the best thing I have ever done with my life.

That false sense of security that being drunk gives you.......... it's false.

I wish you strength. Half a bottle of vodka in one night is harsh. I know, I've done it too.

AA is most definitely not for me. I gave up on my own, without help, just the support of my husband and son (and you good folk here). But this is not as easy for everyone. Please seek help, it doesn't have to be AA.

Oh, and just an afterthought, the term "alkie" is horrible! Don't call yourself that.