Thankyou for the advice vital, I agree with you. It is like im on autopilot all of the time, I procrastinate everything that isn't habitual. The negative thinking is so intruding and I cannot stop it sometimes even though it hurts so bad.
I have noticed I am the happiest when I decide to do something out of my routine. It's just hard when you feel so low sometimes to make sure you do that everyday, at times I feel there is no point in continuing to fight it.

I will try to call a doctor, I don't feel comfortable in talking to my doctor about it so I'm going to try find a woman to talk to maybe...

Idiot17 I'm really sorry you feel the same way!! It is truly debilitating and horrible to experience. I wish you the best of luck too!

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