I wouldn't know how to put myself first. It just isn't in my makeup. I feel like I'm surrounded by people who do know the trick to doing it though - I see it from even people I'm very close to. But it's alien to me. Part of the most exhausting part of it is though, constantly worrying about what others are saying and doing and thinking.Like at the minute I feel let down by Mark because I feel he always has something better to do. Like I'm only being 'tolerated'.