I miss him so very much & feel so lost w/o him. But it was really a toxic relationship, many red flags & I've become heavily addicted to him & the bdsm we were doing.
So now I don't have him. The bright spot in my week. Everything's turned miserable again & I can feel the depression slowly slipping into my world again. I don't wanto go back to where I was, but it's all I know.
I won't look for another partner.