just curious..who diagnosed you for depression?

were you open to the idea of meds? afraid?
were you afraid of the diagnosis?

i have been feeling so down...cooking ..cleaning..taking care of kids...showering...seems too much...but eventually just force myself to do it...with a slowest speed and drag.

i am hoping i snap out of it...excercising..every morning i make plan to go to gym..but kids tantrums...just make me back down..maybe tomorrow...then its something else...

hhmmppphhhhh

i am afraid of sharing this with T...cuz i dont want meds....i dont want my kids taken away ...i dont want to lose control of my stupid pathetic life by sharing too much...i share little...not to alarm anyone...