Well I am sorry that you cannot see the importance of your recovery in reporting this and bringing this man to justice. It is completely apparent you are suffering severe PTSD both from the first rape and the second.

But, you have a responsibility to your community to keep it safe. You are allowing a rapist to remain on the streets because you don't want your 'friend to feel sorry for you'? Who wouldn't feel sorry for a rape victim? We do, your friend would and so would you.

It is unfair to come on here and ask what you should do and then argue that what we have told you isn't going to work. You have been given very sound advice by many people here and we all did it because we care about you and your healthy, safe recovery.

Perhaps there's more to this story if you feel you cannot report it. Perhaps you need to investigate why you need to binge drink to such a degree at such a young age. Would this situation have happened if you weren't drinking so? Is that what is stopping you from reporting it? It shouldn't...because no matter what your actions were, you still are not to blame for another person forcing you to have sex. But you need to examine why you need to drink the way you do. It is not a common thing for people your age.

Think about it this way...if this rape happened to your daughter....what would you want to do about it? You see, I have a daughter just about your age, and at this time, if that ever happened to her...if that guy wasn't jailed for his own safety from me...he'd be dead by my own hands. Why? Because I wouldn't want him able to do it to anyone else. If you leave him to go free...he might do it your friend....or a sister, or your mom....think about that. You're worried about someone feeling sorry for you when he could possibly ruin their life forever too???? Hmm...feeling sorry as opposed to ruining someone else's life too...sounds like an unfair exchange doesn't it?

Please hun...if you are doing adult things like drinking and partying...you need to start cleaning up like an adult would. That means bringing this man to justice.

ABT