Greetings. I'm just curious as to what you guys selected for your avatars/usernames and why? Is there a backstory or a specific meaning to your combination of avatar selection and username? If so, what would it be?

My avatar picture is of Ruvik from The Evil Within game. It's basically a survival horror shooter game where you're trapped in a subconscious interlinked world that is generated by the thoughts and memories of each person inside. Ruvik is the main bad guy who was one of the first developers of the project and has a degree of control over the world which he uses to make monsters to send after you and to randomly change the environment and appear and disappear to make your life difficult while being immune to conventional gunfire so he's basically God of his world. He might seem like a typical evil villain but he has a deep backstory which I identify with.

Basically as a kid he had high intelligence which made it hard for him to identify with other kids or make friends and his parents were neglectful and abusive of him and his sister was the only person who loved and understood him. Well she died and he became disfigured from a fire (hints the scaring on his head and chest) which caused further abuse from his parents because of his appearance and the only other person he had left who understood him was a scientist who mentored him which caused him to want to make the world you're trapped in originally as an attempt to bring his sister back to life which of course failed and caused him to go crazy.

I identify with his character and backstory because I had high intelligence as a child too so I know what it's like to have trouble making friends along with abusive family and nobody to understand you and I see it as symbolic as I often struggle with my inner darkness and I have to work to try to contain said inner darkness so that I can be a decent person.

I also would give anything to have a world of my own where I can be free to do whatever I want and be free of the emotional pain that plagues me daily while having absolute control over my future and destiny and having superpowers that make me special and unique rather than a mere human.

Plus he looks so badass haha

My username signifies my fear of letting people close to me and my difficulties trusting others which makes the darkness my friend metaphorically speaking. I hide in the shadows letting very few people see the real me. I frequently show others only what they would want to see about me and I often isolate myself or push others out of my life.

Sorry for getting so deep haha I wanted to share this and I'm eager to hear what you guys have to share