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The frustration in some senses is a good thing. It means you want things to be better, and that at very least you are not giving into the depression. Give into that and you act as though you don't care and certainly don't have any fight left.
As to why? Who knows. But it is what it is. Everyone on the planet has some sort of problem that they struggle with. Ours is just a MI. Not the best struggle to have, but better than others that have say cancer.
Don't stop fighting. Accept the bad days will come, ride them out, shut yourself down, do what you have to to get through them, and then try to look forward to the good days, because you know they will come. Almost impossible to do when your head is in the wrong place, but overall you know they will. I might be different as I seem to be rapid cycling for the moment, which means the good days come around pretty often. Two years ago was a very different story, with the depression lasting months on end. But good days did come, and they will for you.
I wish I could practice what I preach, but it's all about accepting the bad days are just part of it, and not beating yourself up or giving up because of them. Sounds good. I am still struggling with it. And the last thing I want to hear is exactly what I have just said. Hang in there is more of a trigger for me than a comfort. I hope it is not for you.
Gee, that was a happy post wasn't it......
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