You could say that I had it all in my life but now it is gone… I took an early retirement and all my life savings including my retirement money and put it in a business. I started getting behind in the business and one day not long ago I left it. That’s right I got so depressed that I just up and left. I decided to commit suicide. I had the gun so I drove out to the desert and after two weeks of getting up the nerve to do it the stupid gun didn’t fire. So I then chickened out and came back. The place closed and I put people out of work, I owe money to everyone and my fiancé left me because of what I did or try to do. I did just get a job so I won’t be living on the street but I have everyone calling me to get their money I owe them. I am so depressed that I am still thinking the easy way out is to end my life. So I have nothing left, no one to talk to and my mow x fiancé keeps telling me that I am a total looser. I have no money to get a lawyer to get me out of the mess I made and I just feel like giving up.