It is great to hear I am not alone (although it would even better if it was not the case). Manic, YES!!! Rest of the time, do my best to try and get into it unfortunately I'm not doing it enough for him. Like you, he doesn't want it unless I want it, there lies the problem. One cannot force themselves to be aroused especially when you have no desire to be there. My skin crawls when he does try to initiate it, but for my part he doesn't do it romantically and even when he does I know what he is after and it just makes me want it less.