You triggered something there. I often feel that he is emotionally unavailable, and that is painful. I am rather sensitive and there is a harshness about him which mixes with the hard techno scene that drives me away emotionally. I feel like I need to protect myself from something. There IS a discomfort. Admitting this makes me so sad. I am all by myself otherwise and my mother lives 600 km away. Maybe being alone again scares me.