Thank you all for the replies. I'm glad I'm not the only one going through this.

Anawhitney- thank you so much. I'm definitely hoping to see the records, but if for some reason I don't/can't, then oh well. I also believe that if I should, I will.
I am so sorry to hear that you were abused too. It seems too damn common these days.

Quarter life- thank you as well. I'm definitely not looking to find out why as I already know that answer. I'm more or less looking for answers as to what happened. Because I was so young, I literally have almost no memory of it.
I have never really let this trauma hold too much power over my teen /adult life. Luckily I had a very strong support system with my mom. I do however still deal with some residual issues, though I'm not looking to be "fixed". There is nothing wrong with me.

As much as sexual abuse can have negative effects on people, it can also have some positive as well. That's what I focus on.