Hi Darkeyes
T does know that I feel suicidal when depressed....he also knows I self harm.
Im on 300mgs daily of duralith and must say more stable then ive been in a long time.I still feel however that I could def "go off" regardless.
Its weird,I feel fine....a little anxious sometimes yes.....but why do I still feel the need to stock pile pills and why wont I tell anyone about it?I think deep down I dont want any doc to know ,so I always have that option I guess.
Im confused and I guess I keep hoping these thoughts will go away.