Whenever he plays a gig, he is out of reach for me for a very long time. Before his gig he has to play records at home, then there are the artist dinners where girlfriends are unwanted, the the gigs take the whole night, and then he sleeps and is tired and cranky for the rest of the weekend. I made the experience over and over again, that I feel like he turns our commitment off and on. Sometimes he texts me 50 times a day, and other times he promises to text me when he gets home late at night but then doesn't. I feel like he isn't really there for me. I am so disappointed because I have a job interview later today, and I am tired and sad because he called me at 2 in the morning today while he was slightly drunk and heading to a club to talk to someone and promised to send me a short text so I knew that he was home and ok. But he didn't. I had nightmares all night and when I woke up there was no text from him. It is a big day today for me and I am sad and angry because he knows that but doesn't care.