Ciderguy,

I love your writing. You have a real gift that should be shared with the world and it would be a great tragedy to see it go, and no, not just a 'blip on a screen'. I can only apologize that I have no real advice to give other than this.

Share your story with the world and let it move others like it has us. I think it would give you new purpose and drive and help you feel a real connection to life.

Thank you for sharing, and most of all thank you for your tenacity.