I know this is not a dating site and I am not seeking out that with my headline here, I am being some what ironical with that statement. I am so messed up when it comes to love it is not even funny. I broke it off with a woman who I was supposed to marry back in August, at the end of July, we had only known each other since January. Then I fooled around with one of our mutual friends just for the thrill of it. And I have been trying to explore a new relationship with someone who is into BDSM, like I am. On top of all that I am bi so I wouldn't mind checking that side of my life out. It has been two years since my divorce and I need to have a companion, I have "friends" but no one to be close too and it sucks. I live vicariously through peoples stories or fantasize about my therapists. I hate online dating, because they cost money and I really don't trust CL. UGH