Hi Ciderguy

Strong religious beliefs are a great deterrent against suicide. It is never the answer , it does devastate the lives of loved ones and friends that never recover from the bad feelings.
I am sorry that you had to have your legs amputated. I'm glad that effexor is working for you. Keeping your mind busy especially doing things that you enjoy would be a great help when you are having sad thoughts

I am sorry you lost your son. Perhaps there would be some bereavement groups where you live or your therapist or Dr. would be able to recommend a grief counselor.

I was just wondering whether there are charitable organizations for the disabled in the US that would be able to help you? I really hope and pray that things will improve for you. Have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis