Hi ifyouonlyknewme. I am so sorry you are hurting this much. I hope you can go back to the therapist and that person can help you find some way to fight this horrible affliction of depression. I wish there was some kind of medication you could take although I know that does not always help. Don't compare yourself to others. Each person has a burden to bear in life and our burdens are different. One person's affliction is not necessarily easier or more difficult than another's, just different. I would take a physical illness over a mental illness or depression any day.

I know you are also upset about your brother. It hit me like a ton of bricks when I found out my daddy had liver cancer. It is a lot emotionally to deal with because you love that person dearly. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I wish you the best. Stay safe. Keep posting to us.