I tried a therapist, and it didn't work out for me. I can't afford therapy. I have no health insurance. The last therapist I went to, our first session was all about small talk, and I wanted to get to some meaty things to actually help my situation, especially considering how little I can afford sessions in the first place. At the end, after I got at least a little concerns in, she got on this big trip of telling me what to do, giving me a homework assignment of writing down 10 things I like about myself and creating a piece of artwork about my feelings (I'm an artist) to show her by next session. She's like "DO this. Write it down. You got it? Will you do it and show it next session?" She was friendly, but her whole tough-talk ego trip attitude of telling me what to do like that felt condescending and silly, so I decided to get back at her and send my own little F you by cancelling the therapy and not going back. I did at least write down 10 things I like about myself, before deciding to stop the next appointment.

Besides, I KNOW this obsession is unhealthy, and what I'm asking is how to stop it.