I've been in a really bad place since Tuesday morning and I'm finally regaining some strenth two days later.

I went to my session on Tuesday morning and I was a bit defeated as to the purpose of therapy as I've been for a couple of months. But that was nothing new for my therapist.
After 20 minutes of silence, she said that since I didn't see the point anymore (which I have claimed when I was in a bad place) we needed to terminate.
She wanted to respect my decision to leave, as she put it.

I was taken aback and said nothing. It was too exhausting and painful to talk.

Then she said she needed to let me go for my own good because, I quote, "leaving has always been harder for you than staying".
So I got up and left. And now it's over. She never said I could never come back I guess but how could I come back after this?

She knew how bad I was feeling and she abandoned me. That's how I see things anyway. She didn't care.
I've called another therapist today but I feel so defeated about the whole thing, I don't know, what's the point really? Is it worth it?
I felt so bad yesterday I had suicidal thoughts.

Any of you care to interpret my therapist's words? Thanks in advance.