I had one girl who really "chased" me, but I was reluctant because it was all very extravagant, in a way. Like I was the most beautiful girl she'd ever met, I was perfect, and she was SO in love with me, etc. It was intense.
Once we got together (because I DID like her and we had known each other for a couple of years) however, it all went straight to hell. She went from one extreme to the other in about five seconds; she either loved me and thought I was perfect, too good for her, and so on, or she hated me, told me I had ruined her life, that SHE was too good for me, that sort of thing.
This girl was borderline, as you could probably guess from the description, but alas, she was undiagnosed, and I think she still is, about three years later. It's sad, but my own mental health was quite bad at the time so after three weeks I couldn't take it anymore, and I broke off all contact with her. I don't think that girl knows what love is at all. I wanted to help her, but I couldn't.
So no, I don't believe that anyone has ever been in love with me for real, and I can't blame them. Even if I were loveable, I feel really unattractive, so no guy or girl would look at me twice (and it's kind of hard to win them over with my "charming" personality if they don't, lol).
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And now I'm a warrior
Now I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger than I've ever been
And my armor is made of steel
You can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
- Demi Lovato
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