OMG..........i havent dated in so long i have lost count of the years.........

if you go back in my statistics you can read the "psycho" letter i just wrote to my dr's office after flipping out this week cause the ptsd isnt limited to relationships. my t says it isnt psycho. but the dr wanted me to get procedures and i mentioned my trauma history so he backed off but his office called repeatedly to schedule. i went off the deep end. i wanted to educate that a woman that has been repeatedly raped doesnt jump at the idea of being drugged up powerless to have things ...well i dont want to trigger you...you get the idea....im worried now that im going to have a manic episode i am so upset from all the pressure.

so i fully understand. i think i have accepted that i am going to spend the rest of my life alone.