I know the feeling, they would wig out if they truly new have how many times the thought has crossed my mind or how I really feel when I'm around them. I know that sounds bad, but when I first told my Dad I had bipolar he asked me if he could get some of the members from church and him pray over me. WTF I have talked a little more with family but still I can read that even the outer edge of my bipolar is worrisome to them.