4 days wahoo. I am on the mend. And even eating like a normal person and trying to get a bit of exercise too. I really want to get the nutrients my body needs. It is a good thing to be healthy. So thanks all for your support. It has really helped being able to let my crazy side leak out a little (or some might say a lot lol) here... Don't know why. But it helps. Maybe it is the being able to say whatever and not feel judged and then still have at least a few people support with a comment or hugs or whatever. I always feel a lot of shame after posting though (well, a lot of the time). But I think that might be borderline normal. We all have a lot of shame don't we? Part of why the eating disorders... Anyhow guess I'm going to try and write "normal" sounding posts now so I don't always feel the need to go and delete them... Hooray for recovery. xoxo