((SC)) if, indeed, you had "Stockholm syndrome" it wouldn't mean it was your fault. It would mean the opposite. As you said, you adapted to stay alive. Also, people may stay in similar situations because it is familiar...it may be bad, but it's familiar. There are countless other reasons you may have defended him and told the fireman you were fine. You may have numbed out...there are many other possibilities.

IMO, it is difficult to look back and think, "If I had only ____." As hard as it might be to think about, it was not your responsibility to remember his name or try to find him to prosecute him. You had enough to do to get over the shock, figure out what happened to you and recover. You are still healing. Even if you knew his name today, you may not be in a place where pursuing him would be in your best interest.

I have been in a similar position. A year went by from the time I was assaulted to the time the perp was arrested for doing something similar to someone else. I was not ready or in any physical or mental state to report him until the moment I actually read about his arrest in the newspaper.

You have a good heart to think about this. You are still recovering. You will work this out. I wish you the best.