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angelicgoldfish05 · Sep 03, 2015, 06:34 PM

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Originally Posted by waggiedog

Hello everyone, especially Angelicgoldfish. I do so identify with a great deal of what you've said, more to the point, I understand. My 'affair' with alcohol and anything else I've used as 'self medication' over the past 30 plus years, is much as yours. My main diagnosed disorders/illnesses are BPD, atypical anorexia, bulimia and binge/starve/compulsive eating and depression are absolutely spot on. I know that the BPD came first with all of it's awful symptoms, everything else followed in my efforts to ''cure'' myself of the other ****. I always maintained that if there's something/anything that will help get me through the days full of depression etc, has got to be worth a go, in some cases this was/is alcohol. However, I do know that some of my past behaviour under the influence has been degusting and I never wish to repeat that. So now I'm back to putting a lot of effort into cutting right down on the drink, I've done it before and I'll do it again. I hope that whatever you choose to do brings comfort and into the bargain stops others worrying over you, would be great. Thanks for reading. HUGS and LOVE, as ever. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

I agree and relate to so much of what you are saying. The BPD (which I was basically diagnosed as a teen, but not officially, which is why I don't have it as part of my signature)... And it is the self-harming behavior criterion. Alternating between self-harm behaviors is all to achieve the same purpose, to alleviate the pain. Thanks for your reply, and your concern with how my behavior was affecting others. It is the selfish thing, but I really did not think much about how it does hurt others and causes them to worry. I don't want to hurt anyone or have anyone have cause to worry about me. Cutting down the drink is certainly the way to go here.

Thank you for your reply and support waggiedog! I hope you are doing good today. Wishing you well