Starting college this week is making me go crazy. Last night I talked to someone about having a random hookup, got in touch with a drug dealer for LSD (which I changed my mind this morning), posted an ad on backpage as a male escort (myself), and skipped class last night. I went to class today and today has been better, but I am now depressed. My mom is very worried about me as she went through my text messages. I live at home but go to college as a nontraditional student. (As I am 22). I thought I was finally ready for college. Studying has been very hard. If I don't get through school, I'll never get a job and my parents said next week I have to move out after all that happened last night. If I drop out of college, I'll have to live on my own and struggle to survive. If I continue going, I might have to go to the psych ward. I am in a difficult situation. I don't quite know what to do. There is a place in Georgia I've wanted to go to for a long time that helps people with bipolar and schizophrenia get back on their feet. I don't know if maybe I need to go but I've been dissociating and vomiting out of stress. I can't stop popping clonazepam. I've had cluster headaches, vomiting, and diarrhea. Today it's been better, but I don't know what this weekend will bring. Advice Please!