My manager knows about this i dont think she gives a dam about me from what i was hearing about her .. whihc sucks bc im not a bad guy all i want to do is help people .. , but i was at work today and saw her but i did not say hi because i dont feel comforable talking to her at this time , as im actually pissed off from waht i heard about her last night while i was with her . im hoping we can resolve this and hope things will be back to normal before we got together as we were good friends . she ****ed me over she played me this whole time being with another guy while i was with her like WTF man i dont think i deserve this im so heartbroken people think im melodramatic and **** but i cant help it i wasnt in my right mind lately i dont want to do some ****ed up **** someone was worried i was being suicidal which i dont think im that unstable to do that . i am going to go to the hosptial tommorow to see someone about this . as i cand do it alone .. it was so hard to work today with her on my mind . i hope things will work out i really liked her and really wanted to be part of her life we were so happy i hate this feeling i really do . everything i drive by i just get that sad feeling that this will never happen again this girl wasw the first girl i ever had sex with .. and i never thought i would every have sex with someone who i didnt really love i did love her when i was with her but then this happened so i feel guilty i hate it everytime i think of this it bothers me i get this bad feelign my stomach grr why im i such a little 13 year old .. gr but thanks for letting me vent on this site its helping me muchly ! someone i think almost called the cops on me because of my facebook post .. my parents found out but they are out of of town . .. i got work with her tomorrow to ....