First off, something is kind of blocking me from even writing this post. But at the same time, I would really like to, maybe to try and connect with others about it? Or to see if anyone else has this too? I don't even really know what to say about it, or truly what I am hoping to get out of posting this. But I guess I was just wondering what anyone thinks about if its possible to get PTSD due to a .

I mean it is a near death experience so meets criterion 1. And then I look through the other criteria and a lot of things are there, but not all. Like not really many (if any) flashbacks (maybe cause I won't let myself go there though). And no dreams. Mostly just thoughts and fear. Like I'm still dying or possibly dead or something... Even though I have all the medical paperwork like insurance claims and bills that describe all the treatment they used to save my life. Well part of me does not see how I could have or did survive it. I believe in God, so if anything, I guess it is just going on faith about the whole thing and that God is the reason I am still alive. But then I can even get into some pretty obscure ideas about that (which I don't want to go into).

Well anyways. I was just triggered by who knows what about the whole thing even though it has been 9 months now. I think it is because my chest started hurting whenever I laughed today, which was weird. So then I started googling to find out what could cause that and came across lung problems. Which got me thinking that I had seen something about that on my medical papers from the hospital care I received 9 months ago. So then I went back digging through all the paperwork and reread it all. I was treated for a collapsed lung and through searching the internet, I read that once this has happened to a person it could happen again. I was so freaked out and worried (probably hypochondria type more than ptsd but who knows), that I called the hospital to try and ask them about it. I never received any discharge papers from the hospital, which I though was strange. Never talked to the doctor about what all happened during treatment at the hospital. Idk, I guess I just get freaked out easily about stuff like this now. I don't think I used to. The hospital people just told me that they could not give me any info over the phone but I could come in if I felt I needed to. Guess I'm not that freaked out yet. Maybe it will go away.

So I guess that's that. I also read the PTSD section (well started to) of the DSM V because I'm taking a psych class and it is just interesting to me anyways. So I randomly opened the book to start reading and turned right to the PTSD part. So that is probably also what triggered all this. Well, I guess if you read this, thank you. Hope you are doing ok in your world in your life. This is the next best thing to a support group I think. Not even sure what support group I would go to if I could or if there are even any around. Ok then, take care and good night.