I'm sorry to hear you're struggling, yet I don't think there's anything wrong with how you feel about yourself. You're not a fraud. All of your self expression and interests are valid. They're a part of you. If we lived in a society that didn't put everyone into strict binary labels of either male or female, a LOT of people would be much more comfortable, as well as you. So don't question how you feel. You're just complex and unique.