My dear eden, it really is time for you to ask for help with this. You shouldn't live every day being this scared of life, you really do deserve better, and I really don't think that anyone is going to be angry with you for letting them know. Your psychiatrist needs to know so they can change your medication to help get rid of the demons, and your psychologist needs to know so they can help you work through your troubles and fears. I also think your parents should know so they can support you. Trust me, they would want to know that their own child is suffering this way.