Thank you all for your words. Today I had a big long cry, but it was good. I vented to God. I've had allot of disappointments and somewhere under the radar I started feeling like I was alone again because God want taking care of me (and all the issues of my life). I didnt know that i was thinking those things but all of a sudden the depression was on me and I didnt feel close to anyone even God. Its funny how much I depend on him that I start spiraling when I feel like Im disconnected from him or that he doesnt care. So I take away this thought that -- we all have a need to be cared for no matter how old or how young, but luckily ther is someone to care for us all.