Well, I'm definately not looking for physical attention, and if some guy tried to go that way I'd probably slap him or something. Which is another thing, I don't want to mislead (or even really have anything to do with) any guys looking for "faster" results with a girl... which is a complication to worry about.

...and I don't have anyone to call up like that... it hasn't been going very well to try to get together with a girl to try to build a friendship... ...which doesn't help my confidence...

I want close relationships so bad... I feel pretty content with who I am, and like I'd be a good person to have as a friend or girlfriend... but I'm so lost... it's non-sensical.

I'm doing really well emotionally - it's incredible, really - I feel very emotionally healthy and it's showing, that's why I'm suddenly getting flirted with, I just have this awful lonely disconnect thing... I wish I knew how to move past it