I'm sorry you're struggling. College is difficult for many people, so don't feel bad. I went when I was 17 right after high school and became so depressed and failed classes so I decided not to return. I went to community college a year later, I failed again. I attempted online courses. Failed those too. I was so frustrated with myself because I was a good student when I was in high school. I eventually just gave myself a break and worked on me and tried to figure out what I wanted out of life. When I was 26 I tried again, and I finally was able to complete my degree. Sometimes things take time, and if the timing isn't right now, that's ok. I believe everyone should live life at their own pace. I remember you saying you were taking a full course load. It is still early in the semester, is it possible to drop a couple of classes so that you can only work on one or two classes? Sometimes you have to start out slow and work your way back up. If you need to IP, that's ok, your health is important and I think that is brave to admit that and recognize you need help. I hope you are able to find the help you need.

I truly hope you are able to find some stability and happiness.