Dear B,
When you left I felt like that little 11-year-old girl who just found out her dad didn't want her. I felt like a child again. I know you leaving had nothing to do with me, but I can't help but feel like you didn't like or want me from the beginning. I'm sad and I'm angry. I miss you, and I think I only miss you this much because of the childhood feelings. I want to give up on therapy for good because I've hurt through it before. Nevertheless I've been having bad SI and sui thoughts. I made an appointment with the with your old intern, but I never showed up mainly becasue I want another T (I already knew her through school). I called pdoc and told her, but has hasn't called me back. Maybe God's telling me something....