I perceive it as more so my BPD issues than BP.
For me BP affects all of my experiences across the board, a mood episode will just affect just about everything.
When it comes to consistent interpersonal issues, such as being sensitive to perceived criticism, feeling unworthy, not trusting people who are acting kind, etc, I perceive that it's more of a dysfunctions thing than a mental illness thing.
For me BP can largely influence how I respond to such feelings. For example, if I am depressed, then I am likely to dwell a lot on negative comments and feel just awful, but not be very reactive, and not angry. However when I am in a mixed state, my response to the same thing can be more enraged, riled up or otherwise dramatic and outwardly.
However unlike BP episodes, which come and go, the interpersonal anxiety and paranoia is pretty much always there, and medication-wise really only responds to anxiety medication, not mood or psychosis medications.
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