Dear G, I am amazed that you still hugged me after what I told you on Wednesday. I don't know how you do it - listen and listen to everyone's pain and respond to everyone with such an open heart, so much kindness and and care and gentleness, so much acceptance and attentiveness. It just boggles my mind, and I am so grateful. I feel like you take care of me. You notice when I am pale and are concerned when you think I might be getting sick. One time you wiped a tear from my eye. And on Wed you knew my shoulder was hurting and you asked me so tenderly if you could get me a pillow or a heating pad or anything. Why didn't I let you do that for me? I guess I was feeling too ashamed to be able to receive your care. But I won't forget how much you care. You make me feel so loved. I guess now I know you really mean it when you say I can tell you anything and you won't abandon me.