maybe it's just a mid life crisis, maybe the depression, hell maybe a bp side effect, who knows who really cares, too late for me to care,, to be young again,, being on the down hill side of life is such a downer... forget the bp this is just life , the failure of being old and looking back on a wasted life .... to have no desire to change, that's the worst part... why am I sharing this... but you don't know who I am and really just don't care anymore... it's like confessing to a priest , it does no good for anyone but it feels good ....hahahahah..religion what a waste ...