it's four hours past my bed time I have driven myself completely mad,, I can not sleep I don't want too ,, I want to stay awake because I am afraid to sleep ,, I would pray I pass in my sleep but I now longer care enough to think or be concerned about it..... to uncaring to care if you see the morning. wow,, i'm scared because i'm too weak and stupid to have the guts to do anything,,, positive or negative ... if you reading this shame on you .. your witnessin g a desent into madness i believe.....