When I get into my bipolar depression episodes, I feel needy, but at the same time, I withdraw from people because I don't think that they really want to talk about it. I get frustrated when I try to talk to someone and it's clear from their responses that they truly don't understand. Or worse, they barrage me with a list of problems that they are going through, which gives me anxiety. I get that friends are supposed to help each other out, and I do give them my ear, but, when it's my turn, I feel as though they are not listening, but waiting for me to stop talking so that they can talk about what they want to talk about.

I do go to a therapist, but I have had to lengthen the time between my appointments because of the cost. An appointment that used to have a co-pay of $17 dollars is now $70 because I now have a high deductible. It would be even more expensive if my T weren't willing to work with me outside of my insurance company. I have a journal, actually tow, one that I have on my computer, and one I keep in my purse. That only goes so far.

How do you all deal with the loneliness?