Wondering about exactly same... It must be this condition, or it's the location

Someone might even envy how my life looks like without knowing all i go through inside. I think ~christina has a point there: What is real happiness? It just does't come right and now, as i expect it to apperar out of nothing just like hypomania...

Is "less happiness" more happiness in long term?

Maybe i'll try it next! (just figure out how)

Writing here seems to help a lot at least to get some ideas...