How does BP affect to your alcohol consumption or vice versa?

I developed practically an alcoholism to myself with untreated BP. I needed it for anxiety, depression or mixed state as relief and keep away social anxiety...

In hypomania i always did quit drinking, smoking and lose 20 pounds. It lasted few months...

Now i'm quite stabile with my medication but still i notice that every now and then i feel certain crave for having beer or two -won't harm anyone... c'mon let yourself a break etc. I know it would lead to uncontrolled drinking.

I wish some day to get over it, or am i cursed for rest of my life with this?