i just find it hard to get up in the morning , ,knowing what could of , i just blame myself for this and i cant help it i just get that anxious feeling in my stomach that maybe she deleted me because i said something maybe shouldn't , i just dont know i do miss her still she robbed me for ever have another relationship , world is a friggin trip and i hate it .. i had to take alot of attivan to relieve all this pain and hurt which i know i shouldnt of bc ive been clean off it for a year but i dont know what else to do , went to the hospital they saw me for a min and then said i needed to get a self referral and wont hear back for a month ...... Back to work today to , i hate this .