Hi there. I'm new here and just have a lot of questions and wanted to see if any of you can relate.

I've been struggling with my bipolar a lot lately and feel I have a lack of understanding on some things. I'm recently married and have a wonderful baby girl and love them to death. My wife and I found out I was bipolar during the course of our relationship and although I know she is there for me, her patience is starting to wear thin. I get into my "moods" which seems like a lot and and it makes all communication and understanding of eachother come to a halt. Anyone else have these problems?

Also, do any of you with bipolar get angry often? I'm confused about weather it's part of my "moods", me trying to cover up how I'm really feeling, or something separate all together.

Our roommate also has know he is bipolar since he was in high school. He's kind of my example since I'm still new to this all. He is about in the same position as me when it comes to having a wife and a new born. He doesn't take any medicine for it but is a big pot smoker. He calls it his equalizer that always brings him back to that familiar place. He's just always so calm and collected and over the years I've never seen him have too much difficulty. I don't know how he does it. Lately I can't help but feel resentful towards him and feel like I myself am just doing something wrong?

I used to smoke also but have recently stopped for many reasons but ultimately felt it was no longer helping me in the way that I thought it was. I've tried medicine several times but always come back to the curse of, "I feel good today" and lose sight of what will happen tomorrow and it's ultimately ended up with me being hospitalized twice in the last year to get the meds back in me. It's a constant battle that I feel like I am constantly losing. Makes it hard to even know who I am anymore and that feels all but a distant memory.

How often do your "moods" fluctuate?

Sorry for the long rant but any advice or insight is greatly appreciated. Thanks!