Hey Whiteroses02,

Abuse during childhood is very difficult to understand - esp if it's introduced as "innocent games".

It's much later, after greater understanding about things in life, that we rethink what happened to us. We fear something if it's overtly scary, but most sexual abuse comes packaged as "secret fun".

Also, in childhood we only have a vague idea about what's 'right' and 'wrong' and what's 'normal' and 'inappropriate'....we certainly don't have the emotions such as guilt or shame to process abuse....all that comes with emotional development at which point we may recognize abuse.

It would be a good idea if you can talk to your family about the trauma you faced as a child. Maybe you'll find some support and can avoid such triggering situations.

All my love.