Dear T

It's more than 1,5 week till I finally see you again. Though I'm not really sure if I really want to see you. I kind of feel like you left me in a big dark wood all by myself with nothing at all. I'm not doing alright and I don't know what to do. Why haven't we talked about how I can cope with certain thoughts. We've talked about it, but you didn't really know what to do except to continue therapy. Why hasn't anybody talked about how to cope with these thoughts. There is also nothing usefull on the internet. I've searched, but whatever they suggest, those things don't help me. What to do when I've tried everything that I can think of? Why did you leave me without any help? Or without any option if I would need help?

Maybe you would say that I should talk with my mother. But I can't talk about this to her. It's too, too much for a mother. For anyone who's sort of close to me. Or know me. I don't really feel close to people. I can't burden them with this. They wouldn't know what to do any way.