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waggiedog · Sep 05, 2015, 05:17 PM

[SIZE="4"] Hi folks and I'm real glad to see that most of you are doing really well. I just sooooooooooooooo KNOW how very difficult it is to get to grips with giving up things which we consider ''self medicating'' and obviously in the beginning we naturally think we've found the answer to all of our dreams. It really matters not what the substance is, all that we know in the beginning is doing our ''thing'', our ''thing'' which helps us deal with trouble and strife in our lives, and mostly we're not hurting anybody in the process. I've been there many time, trying to find the answer, all sorts of different answers. Sadly it always turns out that our ''answers'' actually get us into more trouble. I'm no angle, I'm old, LOL, 56 to be precise, yet after more than 30 plus years of trying to find that magic answer to my prayers ~~ and heck, I still haven't found it!! Yes, the meds I have to stabalize my moods work well, I've proved that to myself by going off of them a year ago. I just so wish every morning when I get ready to go out, I didn't absolutely and totally depend on what I see in the mirror. That's one, just ONE of my addictions, constantly checking in mirrors or shop windows that I look OK! Its so absolutely STUPID, because although I'm very vein, I have NOTHING to be vein about!! My face is the kinda face that doesn't stand out in the crowed, infact nothing about me does. I've always so so wanted to be pretty/attractive/beautiful and most of all ................................. THIN. My addiction now is back on the drink (larger), shame as I stayed off drink for 5 years. It's because I'm so very stressed right now.
Anyways, you all just keep on doing as well as you are right now. Thanks for reading. LOVE and HUGS, as ever. [/SIxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxZE]