im gonna tell you guys something. ive kinda been seriously thinking about ending my life in the near future. ive been thinking about this for about 2 weeks now. i told my T about my struggles right now mainly with money and my future. i feel that i have to kill myself before i become too poor to live on my own. i cant rely on my mom anymore, she wants to retire and live peacefully. im afraid i am going to lose my disability because i dont feel that i qualify for it anymore. i dont think my T knows how much i have thought about this. we talked about it today and he tried to reassure me and help me set plans and stuff but i just wanted to leave. im not saying im going to kill myself right now or in the immediate future. so i dont want people to worry. anyway.. thats what im dealing with.